Wednesday, November 12, 2014

what I'm doing with my life


Have you ever gone on a trip with a group of other people (you may or may not have known them before) that breaks you free from your normal bubble and routine and immerses you in an experience so powerful that it ends up shifting your perspective, the way you view yourself, and maybe the entire trajectory of your life itself?

You are rocked to your core, you feel AWAKENED, you can't help but ugly cry when it's all over because you have to return to reality, the magic is over, and nothing in your world will ever be the same.

But it is the same. YOU are the one who is different.

These trips might immerse you in a foreign culture on the other side of the world. Or they might be a short weekend somewhere close to home. You might go into the trip KNOWING it will change your life, or it might take you completely by surprise.

I've experienced a few of these kinds of trips, and I'm starting to recognize a pattern: I feel completely comfortable with the people I'm with, comfortable and safe enough to be MYSELF without holding back, because I know I'm accepted and I belong.

-My high school exchange trip to Germany.
-My campus ministries mission trip to Biloxi, MS the spring after Katrina.
-The seemingly inconsequential summer weekend after my freshman year of college where I returned to campus to help with freshman registration and ended up meeting a guy named Ben.
-The seven weeks I spent snowed in at Holden Village in the winter of 2008.
-This past Labor Day weekend where I went up to northern Wisconsin with a couple girlfriends I met on Instagram, of all places.

This past weekend is going to be added to that list. I flew to Dallas for my first live Beachbody event, a training conference hosted by my upline organization. Yup, basically a fitness cult convention, hahaha. But it changed my life. It shook me to my core and made me really look at what I'm doing with this opportunity. On the outside, it's just another network marketing thing like Jamberry Nails, Mary Kay, or that fancy mascara that I am thisclose to buying because I am a mascara addict and my translucent lashes need all the help they can get. There are even tons of other health supplement companies that sell magic shakes and pills and vitamins that promise to give you the same results that the stuff I “sell” does.

But Team Beachbody is SO SO SO different. The word Team comes in front of the brand because that’s what it’s all about—a sense of belonging and acceptance by a group of the most positive, values-driven, enthusiastic people helpers you’d ever find, who are all committed to making a difference in the lives of the people we love as well as complete strangers. The focus is on helping people achieve the types of accomplishments that seem too huge, personal, and scary to even dream about. What is something that YOU reallyreallyreally want, but you think it would be impossible to do or achieve? Get out of debt? Find a job that 100% satisfies and fulfills you and makes you excited to wake up in the morning? Run a half marathon? Run a mile? Feel good about yourself and squash the little voice in the mirror that tells you you’ll never be pretty enough/never be smart enough/never be skinny enough/never be good enough to get what you truly want? Instead of squashing that dream and telling yourself you'll never make it...why don't you face your fears and embrace what you want out of life? You are worthy of happiness! YOU ARE ENOUGH.

How you view yourself is how you view the world. Think about what it means to lose 10, 50, 100 pounds. You aren't just physically different—you’re an entirely new person! I have a friend who has to accept that she can't define herself as the “fat girl” anymore. She is literally a brand new person on the inside and out, and she's using her experiences to inspire other women to create a new, stronger, more confident identity too.

I’m helping women (including myself) realize that there is more to life than a thankless, stressful job that sucks our energy and joy and that we are WORTHY of taking control of our own success and happiness. How amazing would it feel to be able to redefine your entire life based around your core truths and values? To create a reality that YOU design to perfectly fit your unique strengths and talents?

For years I felt like I didn’t “deserve” the level of “success” that my best friends were achieving straight out of school. Steady jobs, good paychecks, they are even buying houses now, what the heck! I felt trapped, I felt worthless, I felt like I didn’t have control over my life and was just waiting for a magical opportunity to present itself but I was too scared to go out there and make it happen because I had zero self confidence in myself. I felt like no one wanted to hire me because I was never good enough or fit XYZ qualifications. I just accepted the "quarter life crisis." It was an ugly, vicious, bitter cycle and I was becoming a version of myself that I absolutely hated to see, because I knew that I was meant to be as happy as the little girl in fourth grade who dreamed of becoming an Olympic gymnast and designed a wedding magazine with her best friends. What happens between childhood and adulthood that strips us of our joy and makes us so bitter and cynical?

Do you even know where you're headed? Do you even like the direction you're going, or do you have this deep, suppressed, desperate anxiety that there’s something MORE out there if you could only figure out what it is? Do you know for certain that something has to change, but you don't know what to do about it so you’re just going to keep chugging along with the status quo because it’s “safe” and “secure”?

WAKE UP. Face your life.

Surround yourself with people who are successful, people who lift you up, people who share your values and vision, people who are true and real and raw and messy but who embrace themselves anyway and empower you to do the same.

The name of my little team of coaches is Inspire Joy because my deepest desire is to empower women to find their joy and share it with the world, to help them realize their own self worth and feel beautiful in their own skin. To live their truth.

Would I ever have guessed in my wildest dreams that I'd end up being a network marketing professional? Um, hellllllls no. Laughable! Yeah go ahead and laugh and think that I'm crazy. I have degrees in Biology and Geography, I've published an academic paper on forest fires, I thought I wanted to become a pediatrician for most of my life, I am an introvert and I will always detest sleazy pushy salespeople and the heartless profit-driven corporate world. But I've also always known that I am meant to help others, I'm meant to be creative, I love being constantly challenged, I have an insatiable desire to learn new things, empathy and intuition are my strengths, and most of all I know deep down that I'm MADE to be happy and light up the lives of the people I love.

And here I am. And it is amazing. I can finally be true to myself, and by simply embracing who I am and what I struggle with and what makes me happy, I'm making a massive, rippling impact in the lives of women who are just like me, who share my struggles and my joys. My drive has a direction and I finally feel legitimate. I've been a bystander and a lurker and a sponge for years, while I struggle to find a "job" and figure out my "career" and freak about the future, what will happen, where we'll live, what to do after we have kids, well now the answer is so clear and obvious and staring me in the face.

Here's the secret: stop trying to fit society's mold or traditional definition of success. Stop trying to be perfect. Just be YOURSELF. 



Be brave, be daring, be vulnerable, stop hiding, get out in the ring, wake up early, carve out time to have FUN and spend time with the people who matter the most, connect with strangers and turn them into friends, redefine your comfort zone, take lots of selfies along the way, open yourself up, and watch miracles happen.

This is just the beginning!

Tuesday, November 4, 2014

chocolate ganache olive oil cake


Yesterday we celebrated Ben's 29th birthday! We first started officially "hanging out" (college speak for dating) around the weekend of his 21st birthday, which seems crazy to me. We've come so far in the past eight years!


Birthday boy in his birthday scarf...awww ;)

It's become tradition for me to make some form of baked pork and apples with a chocolate cake for Ben's birthday dinner. Sometimes I try to "healthify" the cake, sometimes we go for the store bought ice cream cake, and sometimes I just have to go all in.



Enter this magical vintage cookbook I inherited from Ben's grandmother Mimi. Favorite Recipes of Home Economics Teachers from 1963? GOLDMINE!

I chose a simple looking chocolate cake recipe from among the 57 options (no exaggeration, just counted them all) and tweaked it to bring it up to 2014 standards. 


A little "rustic," but this chocolate cake turned out SO moist and delicious! And of course the ganache is always a bonus. I replaced the shortening called for in the recipe with olive oil, hooray healthy fats! If you're intimidated by the idea of making a cake from scratch, you need to give this recipe a shot. It is just as easy as a boxed mix and SO much better for you (...at least less unhealthy?) without the extra preservatives.



Chocolate Ganache Olive Oil Cake

adapted from Favorite Recipes of Home Economics Teachers, Desserts Edition

Cake 

1 1/4 c sifted unbleached all-purpose flour
1 1/2 tsp baking powder
1/2 tsp baking soda
1/2 tsp salt
1/2 c cocoa powder

1/2 c olive oil
1 1/4 c sugar
1 c milk
1 tsp vanilla
3 eggs

Preheat oven to 350*F.

Sift together dry ingredients in a bowl. In a stand mixer or separate bowl, beat together olive oil, milk, sugar, vanilla, and eggs. Add dry ingredients and whisk until batter is smooth, 1-2 minutes.

Grease two round 8" cake pans and divide batter evenly between them.

Bake for 30 minutes, or until the edges start to separate from the pans and a toothpick comes out clean! 

Allow cakes to cool in the pans before assembling and frosting.

Ganache

8 oz semi-sweet chocolate, chopped (I used 2 blocks of Baker's)
3/4 c heavy whipping cream

Bring the cream to a simmer in a small sauce pan. Turn off the heat, add the chocolate, and stir until chocolate is melted. Allow ganache to cool for 15-20 minutes, whisking every once in a while, until it is thick enough to be used as frosting.

Once cake is cool, place one layer upside down on a plate. Spread about 1/3 of the ganache over the first layer. Add the second layer right side up (so the flat bottoms are together...yeah I didn't do it this way haha) and spread the rest of the ganache over the top!



Friday, October 31, 2014

Self Employment || Month 2



Happy Halloween!

It's officially been two months since I resigned from my full time job. To be honest, it feels like it's been a lot longer...maybe even a lifetime. This fall has been jam-packed with travel, weddings, events, the highest highs and lowest lows, and my own self-imposed overachieving business, but for the first time I finally feel like I'm starting to settle into a groove! Month 2 has been the hardest but also the best, and my anxiety is starting to shift into confidence. I'm doing this!

I stopped by to visit the zoo earlier this month for the first time since my last day, and it was the strangest feeling ever. Walking on grounds, I felt overwhelmed with this happy sense of "home," but at the same time I didn't belong anymore. The season had shifted and the summer crowds, lush green gardens, and hordes of campers were gone and replaced with golden leaves, a chill in the air, and dead crunchy prairie grass. My office was still the same, the people were the same, but also different. My workspace still has post-it reminders and lists written in my handwriting, and all my old supplies right where I left them, but Valerie has started to make it her own space and has taken on my old responsibilities with energy and grace because it's her job now.

It's weird to belong, but not belong.

Like graduating from school, but if your friends and classmates didn't graduate with you...

One of my main goals for October was to implement more structure and routine into my schedule. It's definitely a work in progress, but I already feel so much better and more calm. It's easy to get trapped in the feeling of "never doing enough!!" but I'm also starting to force myself to reflect, track progress, and give myself props for the things I'm doing. I have a lot going on, and if I don't give myself a gold star, no one else is there to do it for me!

OCTOBER ACHIEVEMENTS!

Personal
-Celebrated our 2 year anniversary
-Applied for and received dual Dutch citizenship with my siblings!
-Celebrated my friend Kate's bachelorette party with a nude painting class (so fun)
-Traveled to central IA to celebrate my college roommate and best friend Christine's wedding! (And was involved in a very scary accident along the way that threw me off for the entire following week)
-Stopped by my grandma's farm to visit on the way home from Iowa
-Had multiple dinners, lunches, meet ups with girlfriends
-We've been attending church every Sunday we're at home

Etsy
My Etsy shop ended up on the backburner this month due to personal events...but I'm ready to focus, create a holiday marketing plan, and ramp things back up!
Stay tuned for new sneak peeks :)

Beachbody
This was an incredible and potentially tipping point month for my health and coaching business.
-I am finishing up two awesome and dynamic online fitness accountability groups
-I'm continuing to host team virtual hangouts every week
-Two of the coaches on my team advanced "rank"
-Ran my first training program for my team
-Hosted my first mini clean eating challenge (stay tuned for November's!)
-I'm starting to figure out how to maximize my productivity so I don't feel sucked into Facebook and email 24/7.
-I now have 46 coaches in my downline team! AKA I am leading a legit organization! It's so exciting and fun and I can't wait for things to keep snowballing
-Earned my highest weekly paycheck to date (more than my old FT salary)

NOVEMBER GOALS

Now that I feel like the crazy, obsessive, unorganized, chaotic, hanging to sanity by a thread, endless weddings, push through and work until something happens phase is over and I'm starting to settle down and come CLOSE to some sort of "balance" (or at least a state where I can keep almost all balls in the air), I'm looking forward to heading into November with a plan. Here are a few of the top action items I want to accomplish!

Personal
-Cook a fancy dinner and have a stay at home date night every Saturday
-Attend church every Sunday
-Clear out our second bedroom (aka the junk room) and turn it into a work space! This is a personal goal because it is going to drastically improve the overall quality of my entire life.
-Get to the gym twice a week (I've been working out at home but need to take advantage of the classes and membership we're paying for)
-Yoga once a week

Business
-Be more consistent with tracking expenses and income so I can gain control of my finances and pursue opening business accounts (scary)
-Improve my existing Beachbody accountability and training group experiences
-Develop an Etsy game plan for the holidays
-Complete this Digital Products e-course and list digital products in my shop
-Enroll and begin this InDesign e-course !! so I can start to officially create and sell wedding invitations
-Establish and follow set working hours and a daily routine
-Start blogging on a regular basis and plan my posts, so they're not as sporadic
-TRACK TIME! Don't get sucked into social media or distracted. Be focused!

And with that last goal, I'm going to close this post so I can head to Starbucks for some focused and productive work before my sister Ella arrives this afternoon! We're hosting a Halloween party tonight and there are costumes to be made and food to be prepared.

Have a wonderful weekend!

xo Anna
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